Sometimes

sometimes gazing at the moon
gives no pleasure
and beating up by the sun
feels no pain at all

?

Sparkling stars and lightening moon

Lonely thee and forgetful you

Body parted, soul stuck

No more proof could I offer.

Love so true, not lovers

Lover’s blind, not love

Past was once a future

Future undecided.

I never had

I am in love with the shoes I’ve never wore

Is there a factory that can make shoes that I have in my mind

The shoes that can take me to the land that is reach of nowhere

Till eternal, I shall come with you. Oh shoes, my shoes….

Walking down the street, I found that corner

Where we had hide ourselves from the reach of this ugly world

Where we have traveled into a whole new world created by us

Where we buried our sweet memories filled with love and care

The street is all ugly now and destroyed by Mankind.

I want someone like you to rely on

But you don’t exist anymore

Should I be then, alone all my life

Or will you come back for me

You and I

Only two people yet very different from each other

You longed for me, for you have loved me

And I longed for you, for the love that I never had

Fly away; fly away, into far flung land

I don’t want to see you in me anymore

Go with the gust of wind and don’t turn to this direction

For I will be gone too with the dirt of earth

voice

Don’t write depressing poems from now on…okay?

I will try not to but I can’t guarantee you

I write what I feel and may be I am depressed

That’s why I write such poems...

his voice echoed….

I then stop typing for a while and then closed my eyes thinking that he might show up from somewhere. I don’t know. I knew nothing.

I wish I can just pack my heart and mail it to you. Of all the things that happened, now I have come to realized that I thought I was hurting others but I was hurt the most, I was hurt deep and I know it would be hard for me to recover.

It was hard but then I chose to stay alone, maybe I was a lonely person. I wish I can make everyone happy but I am good for nothing.

I wish

I wish it would’ve rained that day

So I could hum your favorite tune

And dance barefoot on very wet soil

And love you in every drop of rain.

I wish it would've snowed that day

So I would hug you the tightest,

Feel the warmest inside and out,

Offer the purest of my love

Like the very first December snow.

I wish the street would’ve stretched that night,

Sky filled with stars and only two of us

Walking down that street:

We would’ve walked,

Walked and talked the sweetest…

But now, I can only wish

Word

You wanted to hear
every word from my mouth
while I already spoke
with my eyes

Awake

Moon has disappeared
sky covered with black blanket
i was awake
while the night slept

Without

without seeing, i knew you exists
without touching, i felt the magic
without knowing, i fell in love with you

without talking, i heard you
without meeting, i depart from you
without realizing, i was betrayed...

without looking, i had seen the ugly truth
without speaking, i sensed you
without confusion, i lost the way to you

Too short

Love so pure
never had before
songs so sweet
never heard before

life so beautiful
never felt before
moment so precious
never meant before

smile so genuine
never seen before
word so perfect
never read before

goodbye's so hard
never said before
time too short
never realized before

To my unseen grandmother and grandfather

i've never seen you or met you
not even in the old family pictures
nor in the black and white photo frames
but i see you everyday from the eyes of my mother

you were alive all these years
you look unhappy but you are safe
perhaps you wished the night would never come
or you will miss seeing us while my mother sleep

i never had a chance to listen to your stories grandma
but i hear you everytime from my mother's tongue
i never had a chance to laugh at your jokes grandpa
but i laughed seeing my ama's hearty laugh like you do
and i am lucky enough that i can still connect to you both.

A true story of a boy from bir

Being a human being is the hardest thing a man could ever imagine. We are filled with anger, hatred, jealousy and ignorance which caused destruction to others and most importantly to ourselves. He is 25. He possesses everything that every girl sees in a boyfriend and husband. He had it all yet he had nothing. Ever since he was a kid he had a hard time controlling his temper. He tried everything to lessen his temper but failed to do so. By the time he grew older and older his temper never seemed to be in control which made his friends all seemed to drift away and he was left all alone on the empty stage of his life. The situations of his family especially his old coughing mother proved no help to him to control his temper perhaps creates more frustration inside his mind. His temper grew, grew and grew. He starts to isolate himself from people. His older sister is the sole bread earner in the family. She looks strong from outside but her swollen eyes tell the untold worries and endless tears she cried every other night. Her heart was as weak as a betrayed lover's heart. His mother needs a surgery but they can't afford it. His family faced immense obstacles surviving every single day on the tip of a needle. After finishing his high school, he went to Delhi to do a course in management. After one year, he heard the sudden death of his old father shocked his family. He was frustrated, angry yet helpless. Every time he sees his old mother coughing in the hot afternoon outside the house under the old pine tree with the sound of bees revolving around the tree, his heart is already dead and shed no more tears. For all these years he had hold the volcano inside. Four months back from now, he took a huge decision of his life. Now, he is a monk at Sherabling monastery in India which is forty five minutes drive from our town. He also teaches English to other monks who came from Tibet. Maybe, the monastery is the only place where he felt safe and controlled. May he conquer all the negative energy and attain enlightenment.

Strange

Strange is the love we shared
neither you understood nor i
but sticked with a hope
again, we are back to the beginning

Strange is the life we shared
neither you survived nor i
sinking into the Heaven and Hell of no one
again, we are at the dark horizon

Inner pain

The wind blew so hard
full of anger, rage and hatred
the rain poured so hard
full of pain, dismal and tears

Onion and Honey

you are the onion
i am the honey
when peeled, you gave tears
when tasted, i healed pain

you are the onion
i am the honey
you brought tears for no reason
i brought smile even in dismal

you are the onion
i am the honey
you smelled after tasted
i protected you with a drop of sweet

you are the onion
i am the honey
you got punished in the hot oil
while my journey begins and ends in the cup of hot water

you are the onion
i am the honey
you sacrificed all four season, for a delicious meal
and i in the name of a sweet taste upon the tongue

Lost

The body which you've touched

has no place to hide

the soul which you've blinded

has no lights to see

Frozen

I cried whole night of that cruel winter
in the cold wind of starless night
i cried, cried till my eyes dried
and now i remained frozen and shed no more tears

Unrest

Dawn to dusk
subway's unrest
thousands of legs
approaching everyday

choosing different path
in the accomplishment of same dream
thousands of staring eyes
filled with new hopes and dreams

half of life has gone
swiping the metro card
and in one blink
gray hair and death welcomes you

In a glimpse, magic age has gone
all you can recall are just memories
the years swept too quickly in the quest of life
and you will be gone without leaving any further clue.

Untold Stories

Behind the Himalayas
sweet memories lies
which then turned into sour pain
and now only tears of blood flows

Behind the Himalayas
my ama(mother) sung sweet songs
which then turned into cries of pain
and now no more sweet songs to be sung

Behind the Himalayas
was once land of joy and peace
which then turned into a land of despair
and a land filled with blood of innocent people

Potala: a beautiful prison

Potala behind bars
Shackled with invisible chains
Voice has been shunned
For more than a decade now

Many lonely days and nights
Passed with the blowing wind
Cried under the starless nights
Yet greet every morning with a hope

A hope to welcome Kundun to his homeland
A hope to see Tashi Shoepa greeting Kundun
A hope to enjoy Kundun’s hearty laugh
And a hope to free from the shackle

Lost

Drops of tears
Lost in the ocean
Sweet innocent smile
Gone with the wind

Disease

Loneliness is like a disease
killing slowly deep down

Light

Darkness dwelled deep down
guide me with your light
in the darkest tunnel of life
i need your light

Leaving everything behind

Nothing on my mind
I came this far
Without knowing the pain
of being away from loved ones

days seems like years
hours like months
minutes like weeks
and seconds like days

my heart aches in pain
leaving everthing behind
facing the hard core truth
was not that easy as it seems to be.

Troubled Soul

Everytime i look at the mirror
i see a troubled soul
and a troubled me

Ocean of Tears

Tears in my eyes
floats in the ocean
i swam deep down
in the hope to see you

i drawned deeper and deeper
lost the path to you
i swam deeper and deeper
alas! i never made it to you

Darkness

Rainbow over the hill
darkness inside the heart
rainbow last for an hour
darkness remains forever

Rainbow filled with colors
darkness with black
colors faded slowly
black stick with darkness

Rainbow spread joy to people
darkness leaves tears
joy last for a day
tears last till draught

SCARED

My confusion leads me nowhere
in fact no where
Scared of my own shadow
for it is also confused
i can't force my shadow to be with me
for it always does the opposite of what i do.

FLY AWAY

Like a bird in the sky
take me to the highest
where no one could reach
for i wanna fly so high

Like a fish in the sea
take me to the deepest
where no one can swim
for i wanna fly far away!