UNENDING NIGHT

These days I just can't seem to say what I mean [...]. I just can't. Every time I try to say something, it misses the point. Either that or I end up saying the opposite of what I mean. The more I try to get it right the more mixed up it gets. Sometimes I can't even remember what I was trying to say in the first place. It's like my body's split in two and one of me is chasing the other me around a big pillar. We're running circles around it. The other me has the right words, but I can never catch her."
Haruki Murakami




Here he comes with a smile on his face. I can’t help looking into his big eyes that speak so much straight from the heart. Oh, how do I look? I didn’t thought of that nor did I felt nervous but my heart knows how I felt. It was a moment so right, everything seems so perfect. I wish the time would stay still.
We were no different than other young people walking on street except that we had something in common too….we laughed at the same joke, we talked about the same old thing which sometimes pisses him off but I don’t like to hold anything in my heart. Sometimes, I feel my heart is a basement filled with old memories that is hard to throw away yet a pain to keep.
He ordered a beer and a cranberry juice for me, I can’t drink that much of cranberry at one time but I didn’t tell him as he was having quite a time. Wow, the songs were just perfect; it was as if the songs were sung especially for us. It was a night filled with chaos around us but we were silent gazing at each other’s eye and knowing that it would be painful if we have to depart. We traveled to a whole new world by that time, the world of him and I. it was a moment to remember.
You walk like Govinda (an India actor), i told him. Ha ha……, he laughed, how am I supposed to walk then, hanh! Well, maybe I am trying to impress you.
I knew this will happen. Maybe, we were supposed to be meant together for this much only, to this road.
Time is ticking…then and now….its been a while now but I still have my alarm sets at 10.a.m.

TRACK FIELD

My mind is a track field
And your running never ends
Hair on your beautiful..
Weave me into it
My mind is a track field
For you, there isn't a finish line

As you sleep, I am jolted
Thoughts speed through
Oh, feelings
Questioning me uselessly
Should I wake you

I've booked my flight
Again, all i need is to dial
But you are asleep
I'm sure you look serene
Just as dawn breaks

I will soon again gaze at your beautiful
So endlessly..
Even stars would envy
I know..
This time it's so real
Tell me again, we are one
Who knew..

Pleasure of giving

With a pair of Ugg boot
You can feed ten people in my hometown
With every cup of star bucks coffee
You can pay for someone’s meal for a day

With the north face jacket
You can help someone’s pay fees for their school
With the Vera Bradley bag
You could help someone’s pay for their medical fees

I feel guilty, I had them all
But I don’t need them all
I feel guilty wearing them
Because this pleasure last only for a day

But the pleasure of giving
To the people in need is the true happiness
That I was searching in these brands
And I am glad that I finally found the “pleasure of giving”

The last Monsoon

On the night of the last monsoon
You stand at the railway station
The yellow painted telephone booth on the right
And the long, black unending railway track on the left

You stand in the middle
With a 50 Rupees umbrella
You hold it tight while the train brings the wind
you didn’t move while your umbrella has gone with the wind

Now only thing left is the
Receipt.

SONNET

Shall I lean on your thought day after day?
By every gust of blowing wind
Or should I cover and lay
I could safe it in my mind
Memory so clear, lasted for a long time
Alas! Often hard to forget the uninvited past
On reminding, it tastes bitter like a lime
And upon realizing thoughts travel quite fast
Your thought is now only thing that I treasure
Worldly pleasures is now I despised
No one could ever manage to take the measure
Of the abundance love I have for you had surprised
The feeling is awkward without you near around
And I live everyday with your love surround

Udaan

Tibetan National Anthem

Let the radiant light shine of Buddha’s wish-fulfilling gem teachings,
the treasure mine of all hopes for happiness and benefit
in both worldly life and liberation.

O Protectors who hold the jewel of the teachings and all beings,
nourishing them greatly,
may the sum of your virtuous deeds grow full.

Firmly enduring in a diamond-hard state, guard all directions with
Compassion and love.

Above our heads may divinely appointed rule abide
endowed with a hundred benefits and let the power increase
of four fold auspiciousness,
May a new golden age of happiness and bliss spread
throughout the three provinces of Tibet
and the glory expand of religious-secular rule.

By the spread of Buddha’s teachings in the ten directions,
may everyone throughout the world
enjoy the glories of happiness and peace.

In the battle against dark negative forces
may the auspicious sunshine of the teachings and beings of
Tibet and the brilliance of a myriad radiant prosperitys
be ever triumphant.

You got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere
Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove

You got a fast car
I got a plan to get us out of here
been working at the convenience store
Managed to save just a little bit of money
We won't have to drive too far
Just 'cross the border and into the city
You and I can both get jobs
And finally see what it means to be living

You see my old man's got a problem
He live with the bottle that's the way it is
He says his body's too old for working
I say his body's too young to look like his
but mama went off and left him
She wanted more from life than he could give
I said somebody's got to take care of him
So I quit school and that's what I did

You got a fast car
is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way

So remember when we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone
be someone

be someone

You got a fast car
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We go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a bigger house and live in the suburbs

So remember when we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone
be someone

be someone

You got fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for a better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving

So remember when we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone
be someone

be someone

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way

Missing Star

The Night has come
But my star is missing
The moon has shine
But my world is dark.

The fireflies glows in the dark
While my life has lost its glow
The owl was awake
My world has slept forever.

The wind sung sweet songs
with its every gust
My song was unheard
for more than a decade now.

I was awake
While the night slept.

Soul Shrink

She lean once again
on the invisible wall
gracefully, tucked her polka dot shirt
under her waist
no pain seen on her face.

Her eyes talked beautifully
lashes groomed themselves
she touched her soul
with her bare hand, then smiled.

She slightly shrink
in her visible self
and left her "Smile"
in the mirror.

Potala : A beautiful prison

Potala behind bars
Shackled with invisible
Chains
Voice has been
Shunned
For more than
Fifty years now.

Many lonely days
and nights
passed with the blowing
wind.

Communist rise like a fire
Destroys everything
With the single breathe
We died infinite.

You took the soul
And
Left the body
Behind

You took the food
And Left the plates behind
You took the well
And
Left the thirst behind.

Upper Floor

Upper Floor

No one lives at the
Upper floor of the house
That room has been
Closed for a long time

Wooden stairs that
Used to lead to her room
Don’t go to the
Upper floor anymore

The room
Filled with old good memories
Children’s toys
Covered in plastic boxes
With a stained piece of white shirt


Her heart is like a basement
Filled with old memories
Under the pile of dust
The heavy silence lies beneath it

The wooden stairs that used to
Lead to her room
Don’t go to the
Upper floor anymore