MELTING

The day passes so fast and time swept by as you wake up every morning….and yeah, every day you wake up is a birthday. I thought it was mid of October but, no longer had December come knocking at my door and it was the seventh grade and it began to snow and snowed for two days.
The morning I woke up was beautiful as everything was covered with snow and it looks so beautiful and it was more beautiful maybe, because it was untouched, but an hour later it was no longer as pure and white before as it has black and brown spots and traces everywhere…
The first day when it snowed the students were so happy and excited, they were throwing snow everywhere and it was so cold and I missed the sunlight, the heat and the greenery…everyone was having fun but I can’t able to enjoyed it fully as there was something missing.

That day was just so cold that it’s hard for a man to survive without any shelter to live or warm clothes to wear. But the day ended full of laughter of my friends.

Next day, it was still snowing and I thought I don’t want to waste this beautiful day and will enjoy every moment….but it was no longer a happy and cheerful day when I heard the demise of my father, honestly, I couldn’t believe it first but as its always hard to accept the reality, I cried the whole day, not just because he passed away but because of not sharing my time with him.

As I watched the snow, at some point we are both the same melting deep down in a place where it’s warm and dark and I prayed for his reincarnation as a human, to be born as a Tibetan again.

Now, today when I see snow, I somehow kind of going back to my seventh grade….and it gives me a strong feeling of life as impermanent and whether we believe it or not but we have to melt one day….like the snow.